birthdays. some remembered. some forgot yesterday. and during this weird stretch in my timeline it’s affecting me how alone i am. how alone we all are in this world. when it comes down to it we have to rely on ourselves. solely on ourselves. we cannot depend on other people. maybe this makes me sound jaded. maybe this closes me off from the world. but in the grand scheme of things we come into and leave this world on our own. we have to be strong enough to handle the losses. we have be strong enough to enjoy the success. and i am currently learning. i’m growing. i need to believe in the strength i know i have and acknowledge the fact that i will be stronger because of the disappointments and upsets.